My schedule this week has been ridiculously full. I've barely had time to sleep. It's basically been: up at 5am to workout. Work A by 8am. Off work A by 6pm. Work B as soon as possible, 6:30 at the latest. Bed by midnight to do it all over again.
I'm super exhausted and have to get to bed so I can wake up early to work out and then get to work. Yay.
Friday, July 18, 2008
Thursday, July 10, 2008
.. Betcha love can make it better
True story: Distance is killer.
I'm new to this relationship game. And while there has never been an explicit "we are dating exclusively" statement or conversation, there have been "I consider you my girlfriend" and "there aren't any other girls". I still don't know how to handle all of this. And being in different states is just.. Weird. Once I'm in a different time zone.... Who knows what will happen. Poor timing on both our parts.
That being said, I have trust issues. Particularly with the male gender. And other people I am extremely close with. I have been betrayed before by two of my best friends for petty, stupid, high school/immature reasons. In retrospect, if I had less of a temper and less pride, I could have brushed it all off after giving it time to boil over. BUT, for whatever reason, that is not my nature. I have come to accept it. And people around me just seem to know not to push me over the edge. I give my trust easily, but give me one miniscule reason to give up that trust, and it's overrrr.
Totally different note, driving in the city is getting out of hand. My road rage/aggressive driving will get the best of me some day soon.
I'm new to this relationship game. And while there has never been an explicit "we are dating exclusively" statement or conversation, there have been "I consider you my girlfriend" and "there aren't any other girls". I still don't know how to handle all of this. And being in different states is just.. Weird. Once I'm in a different time zone.... Who knows what will happen. Poor timing on both our parts.
That being said, I have trust issues. Particularly with the male gender. And other people I am extremely close with. I have been betrayed before by two of my best friends for petty, stupid, high school/immature reasons. In retrospect, if I had less of a temper and less pride, I could have brushed it all off after giving it time to boil over. BUT, for whatever reason, that is not my nature. I have come to accept it. And people around me just seem to know not to push me over the edge. I give my trust easily, but give me one miniscule reason to give up that trust, and it's overrrr.
Totally different note, driving in the city is getting out of hand. My road rage/aggressive driving will get the best of me some day soon.
Monday, July 7, 2008
I know the grass is greener, but just as hard to mow
I'm currently on summer vacation from a non-descript, Catholic liberal arts college based in the Bay Area of California. I have my ups and downs with school... I HATE core curriculum. Drives me insane, but I know it's something I have to struggle through in order to get my degree.
Being home is a slightly foreign concept. It's been since December, and it just feels... Off. On top of living in a cage, it's very uncomfortable not seeing people that you are used to spending hours upon hours with. It's hard living two seperate lives. School life and homehome life. If I had stayed in California for the summer, maybe I wouldn't be dealing with this now...
Thus, the grass is greener. I find myself in these situations frequently... "Well, if I hadn't done this, then I'd have this" or "If I had stayed there, I would have done this... But since I'm here, I get to do this". Allllll the time. It's a problem I have. However, everything happens for a reason. I'm sure of that. And I know my grass if pretty damn green in every situation I find myself.
So carpe diem... Live it up. Love it. And do your best. There's nothing else you can do.
Being home is a slightly foreign concept. It's been since December, and it just feels... Off. On top of living in a cage, it's very uncomfortable not seeing people that you are used to spending hours upon hours with. It's hard living two seperate lives. School life and homehome life. If I had stayed in California for the summer, maybe I wouldn't be dealing with this now...
Thus, the grass is greener. I find myself in these situations frequently... "Well, if I hadn't done this, then I'd have this" or "If I had stayed there, I would have done this... But since I'm here, I get to do this". Allllll the time. It's a problem I have. However, everything happens for a reason. I'm sure of that. And I know my grass if pretty damn green in every situation I find myself.
So carpe diem... Live it up. Love it. And do your best. There's nothing else you can do.
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